#RoadToSablay ; After Defense

College of Science and Mathematics, UP Mindanao.

For those of you who are following this blog for sometime, you may probably know that I am currently working on my thesis. I've been waiting for this for ages and here it goes! I just passed the defense! Honestly, the week before the defense were exhausting, anxious and depressed. I don't know but everyone may never be that ready to defend their thesis. There is always that feeling of being "not enough". I didn't even expected to be able to defend on the last day of the defense because of the fact that I think I'll never make it through. I was so stuck with my thesis for some time and there's no backward or forward. It's not so good to be so unproductive at all, while everyone are working and moving on with their lives. I can't help myself but to be jealous of them because I could be one of them too. Never in my life had the thought of being here in my current situation.

I asked myself too many questions that I'm too desperate to answer. Whenever I feel the tension and pressure building, I always try to find peace with the Almighty. He sends someone, somebody to help me and work out my thesis. There are things that I encountered, along with my thesis journey, that seemed to be impossible for my human mind to find an escape. But the Almighty has done all the miracles. He has blessed me with smart and supportive college friends. I am especially thankful to my lab partner who always pushed to the limits. Whenever I feel like giving up, I refueled with my amazement of his drive to continue and reach the goal. 

God sends his angels to keep us on achieving our goals. The day before the defense, I've decided to offer the day to the Almighty. I lay my burdens at his very feet and surrendered everything. I attended the mass with my close friend and went to the mall to buy something. We had a dinner and chitchat for a while. I was calmer and secured.

Rm 105

With my college close friends (JP and Shiela)

No amount of happiness can measure this moment.

To tell you the truth, I am really just nothing. There's nothing in me to be boastful about, since this achievement is not solely my effort. I would like to thank the people who were with me since Day 01. This is for you people,

I still have a long way to run for these to be bidden but I'm on my way to my Sablay!

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Finals.

A BIG cup of Cafe latte for finals. 

"My hope of passing is like the picture above, it slowly fades away."

Math, food engineering and what else? What more can this little brain hold? I've been studying for days now but it seems that the information that I am trying to retain and remember is like an air. It's like bubble that becomes nothing after popping. This post was written by a college student who is now on the middle of her final exams. Her days became doomed with the thought that this could be her last chance of literally passing the subjects, I have tried to pass the exams a number of times, tried to remember how it was solved, the formula and all, but often, my mind could not help but to wander in stressful times. I could not help it, it wanders unconsciously. 

This post was entitled "Finals" mainly because this could be my final post with some little hope of passing in my hands. I could let that little hope fly away after the test and the odds begin. I wonder what will happen if I became unfortunate and fail again. Fail again. It's hard to describe how I felt when I failed. It's like choosing from drowning in the vast sea, being choked by a tight rope or being hit by a gun. It's really hard to choose which is the safest way to die. That "safe" in my last sentence becomes ironic. Nobody is safe until he/she dies. But what I meant with the safe there was the hope that you could still be possibly alive after the dramatic moment occurs. 

To be a student in the University of the Philippines is no joke. It has tested me and I had tried proving myself. Well, I have also experienced one of the greatest down fall in my life, that was when I received my first ever failing grade after years and years of schooling. In addition to that, that caused my delay in my schooling so instead of four years, it became five years. Yes that's right and I'm on my fourth dreadful year. I cried tears and blood. I experienced and saw myself at my lowest possible point. With that, I am more capable of knowing who I am and what I am capable of. 

After all, all this things will be paid off. I hope so, because not everybody who graduates college has the opportunity to get a good job and a good salary. But today is not the right time of thinking that the future may fail me.

Song of the day: 

The Paper Kites - Young

I'm really love The Paper Kites

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My kind of student life in UP.

I've been really busy these past few weeks. First, I'm busy eating countless power points and science related reading materials (like literally), next, I'm also an active member in my organization in school, and lastly, my dearest social life. It turned out that my social life became my last priority when I reached college. I think this is normal if you are studying in a state university. But of course, everything has its good side. Well, one of the advantages of studying here in UP is that you'll be attached to nature. UP is situated in a place where the urban and rural meets, so it’s like enjoying the perks of both worlds.

As you see above, trees are everywhere. Left to right is all green. I really love staring blankly in this area when I find time since my building is a few meters away from this building. It makes you realize a number of things. I can’t explain what those things are but it is something worthwhile.

Just this week, DULA 2014 started. It's like an intramurals in other schools. I’m not fond of dancing myself so I just cheered for my batch mates who joined different sports-related activities. Things like these make me love my student life. Memories like these are to cherish for a life time. One day, my student life shall end and all of these will just be a memory to linger on. When time shall make me older, these things will be my treasure.

Last Wednesday, I came in late in my 8:00am class. I reached the school 8:29 a.m. and so I doubt if I’ll still come to class. I blame the jeepney driver, and all innocent people which have contributed to my lateness. I didn’t pressure myself so instead, I went to somewhere where I can relax and sit until my next class.

I sat to a cottage and after sometime, I started reading an e-book entitled: Sophie’s World. My eyes are dropping and I lie down and looked blankly to the trees. Until I realized I must share it to the world and captured it. And here it goes; the picture above says it all. The cool and fresh breeze that touches your hair and your sweet face, it’s fascinating. Not every people have an opportunity like this especially when you are living at the center of the city. I am lucky to be experiencing these while at school. Most of my classmates complain about their schools. They hated to be in their school, while I love to be in here.

I wonder what you guys are up to. :) How's school?

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BUCKETLIST UNLOCKED #1: To be able to play in UP

When I was a freshman, I joined the Freshmen Night and got mesmerized with the bands playing in front of me. Ever since high school, or grade school I guess, I always dreamt to be able to play in front of a crowd. Well, UPmin AMPLI( UP Mindanao Association of Musicians Playing Loud Instruments) gave me an opportunity to achieve my dreams. They introduce me more to music. With that, I even loved music more.

I never had an opportunity to play in our campus. I have joined a battle of the bands before in a local bar here in my city. Well, I was excited and nervous at the same time. The first time I played in front of a crowd, which is in a bar, I almost can't move my fingers. I was very nervous, my hands are sweating cold and I can't move them properly. I almost want to die in front of the crowd since my first performances aren't that good. Well of course, maybe of pressure. Most of my audience is inclined to music and professional. And then what does an amateur guitarist like me could offer? lol. But I'm not saying I didn't like the experience, that was actually the best experience I ever had in my entire life! Well, it's a childhood dream come true.

FAST FORWARD on October 10, 2014, which is last friday. It was our Freshmen Night 2014. Luckily for God's sake, we were given an opportunity to play during the Battle of the bands. The band's name is  "Insta" simply because we are into pop songs. We played Pompeii and; Safe and Sound by One Republic. Well, we haven't even had a legit practice with our drummer! But, all I can say is that, our performance is not that bad at all! At least for me.

So far, this is our only legit picture.

I'm the one on guitar (Rhythm). I'm so happy that night since my classmates and friends are really very supportive. They come near me and took a selfie. I was really touched. I became an instant celebrity for a night! I was also touched with my bandmates because we never thought that we could push this through because we had only our first and last studio practice the night before, though we have acoustic jams.

Well, the experience is unforgettable. The spot light is all yours (along with my bandmates). I can't see the crowd clearly since all I can see is black. I don't know who's who. It was also my first time to play without any nervousness. I was shocked by the fact that my hands aren't sweating. There I am, playing happily and enjoying the show. I can't help to smile with that feeling of playing in front of a crowd. It's priceless.

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Fun Under The Sun!

Daily status: *currently*
 Mood: Very Busy with everything with school.
 First time? ISLAND HOPPING.
 New: Oh my Gosh! I'll be joining a music organization! >.<
 To do list: Exam in Calculus and PHYSICS. Please wish me LUCK.

Hi friends! Sorry for updating late. But anyway, last August 25-27,2012,we had our field trip somewhere in Agusan and Surigao. And that was OH MY GOD! Anyway, this is the DAY 02. We went to Caraga Region (Agusan) and Surigao. And to tell you, that was the most amazing moment that had ever happened to my life. Day 1 wasn't that enjoyable because we didn't visited any resort so here it goes. 

DAY 2:

I forgot the name of this island but if you can reach this place by travelling through boat from the Enchanted River. Since I appreciate the real colors of the picture, I didn't took a time to alter it. I love pictures more when they are in their natural state.

Oh my upon departure. I was way too excited because this is my FIRST ISLAND HOPPING EVER! This is definitely first time in my entire life and I was so speechless upon seeing the wonders of this place.

The sand was so fine and the water was so clear.

This rock is so nice isn't? It has complemented the white sand.

I guess this is my only picture since I was way too excited and too happy that I jumped in water and splashed it. I didn't had time to go for pictures because the view was very amazing. The water so clear and clean, the wind was so cool and fresh even though the sun was too hot.

DAY 03:

This resort is called Spacebar. The beach was really awesome and you would even forget your name upon seeing the very fine white sand. That looooongggg things there is a big slide. I wished I have tried it before departure.

Let's do some jump shot guys! Oh hey, from the right, that is Jaime, Chara, Victoria, me and Angela. It's really MORE FUN IN THE PHILIPPINES! 

Oh my gossh. The wind is really very refreshing. I love jumping round and round because I can't believe that I'm there. I am really very ignorant but then I was really happy and very fulfilled.

Oh my, this is really amazing! I really love this. I am really very proud of this picture because it reminds me of this very awesome place!

LAST MINUTES....

Oh my they look so nice isn't?

Oh my at the end, I realized that Philippines is such a rich country. I never thought I could ever find places like those in the Philippines. Upon being there, all I can say is a big WOW. The place was so enchanted and amazing. You would be dramatically and unintentionally be in love with nature.You would realize that the best things in life is not money... but it's all about happiness and nature. 

Going to field trip like this is very rewarding because I guess, I had enjoyed it a lot because I am with my fellow classmates and friends. You know, it's a different feeling when you are with your family and when you are with your friends. As a typical teenage, you are more free to do anything you like when you are with your friends because you have the same brain waves and most likely, you are the same likes and dislikes. And amazingly, since I am not a swimmer, I was so happy to announced that I finally floated in the water for the first time! This sound really crazy but hell, I'm happy about it! That was the most amazing thing that every happened to me! Best experience ever! 

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The Maguindanao Road Crime Scene Story.

Daily status: *currently*
 Mood: Im afraid because there was a taxi driver that has been killed near our campus!
 Music: THE SCIENTIST by COLDPLAY
 New: nothing.. new friends I guess.
 To do list: Exam in Calculus, MCB and PHYSICS.

Yesterday while Im on my way to school. I have seen this taxi that was nearby and was struck into a tree. The driver of the motorcycle told me that someone killed the driver and he was a victim of a hold-up. I was afraid because he was killed with the use of a gun. My upperclassmen told us that he was killed 7pm that night. They were at the nearby house and somebody called their attention and told them that somebody has been killed and they must called 911. After calling 911, my upper class gave the phone to that person but he refused to. And maybe just maybe, he was one of the suspects because he didn't even look like he's afraid or what, he's acting so weird and normal. And why would he refuse to talk to the police? If he isn't really the suspect why would he go right after? Isn't weird? It was also raining that night. It's really creepy to pass to that road but we've got no choice. 

The story behind it...

It was been said that the taxi driver has a customer from the SM Mall and he is heading to UP Mintal, to be specific, near our campus and would pass through the Maguindanao road. That was August 10,2012 and it was raining. It was also been said that he was first hold-up and then killed with the use of gun. The taxi was found near the "Rubber Seedling for sale"post. The fact that the guards didn't saw them because they entered the other street where there are no guards. So this might really be planned. There are some children who said that they've witnessed the crime. They said that there are lot's of them. They followed the car and killed the driver.  And up to now, the suspect hasn't found yet.

It's really creepy and very very ... That road has been an abortion road. Lives has been lost. Is it a curse to that road or what? We're really very afraid. So much.

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University of the Philippines, Mindanao (UPmin)

          And I am totally here. My computer had a wonderful vacation to the computer technician for almost a month! I thought I were to die spending everyday without my computer. Oh my beloved computer! Anyways, I found this site nowhere, and I think you guys going to love it. CLICK HERE. Everything is great except that next week will be my FIRST DAY IN COLLEGE. How can I overcome this fact? My friends are very very far from me. Okay now, how am I going to live without them? Speaking of my school, I would like to introduce it to you.

(click the picture for a better view)

          And so, I would like to introduce you to my new school. I haven't had taken a picture the whole campus but I'll promise to take some picture for the first months of my studying there. So this is the University of the Philippines, Mindanao. And I am going to take food technology there. How does that sounds? I'm not yet ready for college. I am not yet ready for the challenges that awaits for me there. But life is full of challenges. I am not a bright student, I am not a consistent honor student, that is why studying in UPmin is such a big big responsibility. This is a big opportunity for me since I never expected to be a student of Upmin. At the first day of our orientation held last May 5-6, 2011. And that was the first time I first saw my batch mates. and my first impressions are, they are kinda boastful but wise. I don't know how to be friends with them. And what I expect is that my college years will be full of problems and worries. Problems about my lessons and worrying about my grades.


           I'm going to miss my high school life. I will miss everything about my memories. I cant ever forget how we used to eat with my besties every lunch and recess. I'll going to miss my teachers who keep on giving us second chances in our projects. I'll going to miss getting a late slip. I'll going to miss every time I copy my classmates' homeworks. I'll miss our noises. I'll miss every song we sang when our teacher isn't around. I'll miss those practices that we always took for granted and though the finished product isn't that perfect at least, we were contented. I'll going to miss every time we walk from school to the mall. Since the mall from our school is just a few steps. I'll just going to miss everything.


           I am used to be with my bestfriends and friends all the time. Now that they are all gone, HOW AM I GOING TO SURVIVE? HOW AM I GOING TO ACCEPT THE REALITY THAT WE CAN'T BE FOREVER? Easy problem for some, but terrible for me.  what a life!

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